Awakening, Conscious Living, Spirituality

Circle of Life

I need to write today.  So much has happened calling back a flood of memories, unresolved circumstances, and desolation in finding the right path.  I haven’t written in a while as I haven’t had the urge or nudge to do so yet I have spent hours pondering our current world’s plight.  There is an old saying that births and deaths come in 3’s.  I just had my third death, but I don’t think it is stopping at three this time.  As I listened to my music, each song brings back a memory for me.  Yes, I am still playing songs I purchased through apple music on itunes 😊. 

As I ponder life and death today, my cousin just died, and my niece is being induced with her first child.  The circle of life in all its glory on display for my family.  It is not the first time for years ago a nephew was born at the same time as my grandmother’s death.  God giveth and God taketh away but the spirit lives on.  I believe this with my whole heart.  The creation of life is a miracle as well as each live birth for childbirth can still be dangerous and for some fatal as I know someone whose cousin recently died after giving birth.  Death is coming for us all one day regardless of age, race, and status of our health.   I see death as the release of the spirit/soul from the body to rejoin with our creator.  It is a time of celebration for that soul albeit a time of morning for those loved ones left behind.

One song today that brought the memories flooding back to me was One Hell of an Amen by Brantley Gilbert.  The lyrics in this song are for my dear friend and co-worker, Tony Funk.  Tony oversaw facilities and maintenance for our parish campus, and I was the office administrator for the parish.  It was a very difficult time for us at the parish in late 2015 and early 2016.  Our boss, the monsignor was very ill with diabetic complications being in and out of the hospital on several occasions.  Being a priest, he had no direct family to care for him and his closest relative, his sister, was two hours away.  I was the one to be at the hospital every day he was admitted as well as in the office to keep things running.  His diabetic condition worsened to the point where his foot up to his knee had to be amputated to keep the infection from taking over his body.  He had vascular complications on top of it all.  At one critical point the infection had reached his blood causing a septic infection to take over his body.  I was the one to press the hospital staff that something was terribly wrong, and they were not paying attention.  I urged his sister to make the trip down as something was seriously wrong.  The hospital staff was not listening, and I needed her their as family to insist on action.  Together we were able to convince the hospitalist that they were missing something as he was declining fast.  It was a blessing that one of the parishioners was a nurse in the lab at the hospital and she mentioned the infection had reached his blood.  The hospitalist was surprised to hear this as he was not aware of it.  That was the darkest day as it was up to our dear monsignor to fight the infection now that the hospital was treating it correctly, but much time had passed, and a sceptic infection can be deadly.  It was time to get down on our knees and pray.  I went back to the office to send out a parish wide email that prayers were needed for monsignor was gravely ill.

During this time, Tony comes down with what he thought was the flu or something as he didn’t feel well and just couldn’t shake it.  Tony was one of the healthiest people I knew.  He made sure to get in his 10,000 steps every day.  He ate only health food. He was the kindest man I have ever met.  I never heard him say one bad word against another.  He never missed a day of work unless he was seriously sick.  Tony called in sick as he just couldn’t shake whatever it was he had.

Monsignor responded to the IV antibiotics and was on the road to recovery although he still had the other critical medical issues to deal with.  He moved from the hospital to rehab for his leg as well as regular hyperbaric oxygen chamber treatments for healing.  Around this time, Tony is still not feeling better, and the doctor decides to admit him to the hospital for tests.  After a week of tests, the doctors thought they had a diagnosis, but it was so rare they were not sure.  Tony never made it out of the hospital.  A week later he died in the hospital before they could begin what they hoped were treatments.  I never made it to the hospital to see Tony. To this day that haunts me.  I was so busy caring for monsignor that I had my assistant go to the hospital to check on Tony.  By the grace of God, we had two priests at our parish so while monsignor was in the hospital the other priest could be present for Tony in the hospital.  My assistant phoned me to tell me it was not looking good for Tony. He had the look of death.  If you have not been around many dying people, you might not know what that means however if you have then you know exactly what that means.  I heard the song “Hell of an Amen” on my way home that night and cried.  I sent a card for Tony that I had hoped my assistant or his wife could read to him with the words “if I don’t see you again my friend, then it is one hell of an amen.”  I planned to get to his hospital room after leaving monsignor’s hospital room that day then received the call that Tony had passed.  I was shaken.  Who would have thought that healthy Tony would die two weeks after entering the hospital while I had been in and out of the hospital with monsignor for months!

What could I have done differently?  What could I have done better?  Why does God always take the good ones early?  Tony’s spirit had passed over to the other side.  I asked his sprit for forgiveness for not making it there in time.  I was so sorry I had thought monsignor was more critical, so I needed to stay with him versus being at the hospital with Tony.  The circle of life.  So many lessons.

During difficult times, I love this song, Strong Enough by Matthew West. I have played it often to see me through my darkest times. The words are a balm to my soul.

For my cousin, Tina, Blest Are They Blest are you dear cousin for you shall see the face of God!

My cousin dying is another of the only the good die young ones.  She went into the hospital a couple of weeks ago with Covid and passed yesterday.  I know she is in a better place.  Her spirit is free to soar now no longer trapped in the physical vessel we call the human body.  Why some recover and some die we do not know for only God knows for thy will be done for the highest good of all.  On eagle’s wings, Tina, may you fly to God for now you can see all of life’s weavings …

LIFE’S WEAVING

[Author Uknown]

My life is but a weaving

between my God and me;

I may not choose the colors,

He knows what they should be;

For He can view the pattern

Upon the upper side,

While I can see it only

On this, the under side.

Sometimes He weaveth sorrow,

Which seemeth strange to me;

But I will trust His judgment;

And work on faithfully;

‘Tis he who fills the shuttle,

He knows just what is best;

So I shall weave in earnest

And leave with Him the rest.

At last, when life is ended,

With Him I shall abide,

Then I may view the pattern

Upon the upper side;

Then I shall know the reason

Why pain with joy entwined,

Was woven in the fabric

Of life that God designed.

May we all remember our loved ones who have passed on with hearts full of love and memories that bring smiles to our faces as we celebrate their reunion with the Creator, our Lord!  May we welcome our new loved ones (as I receive the message my niece is in full labor now) with joy in our hearts, hope and dreams for their future as we celebrate the children of God they are!  May we continue our journey, our soul’s path in this lifetime to learn the lessons we are to learn in our own circle of life!  May God continue to bless us, keep us, guide us, and lead us. Amen!

Meditation and prayer are the tonic for these unprecedented times!  Please take time to spend in quiet solitude to commune with the Holy Spirit.  Ask for what you seek.  Ask for discernment. Give thanks. Keep your heart pure in light, in love, and in service to all. Namaste.

A little FYI that not many know … the funeral mass in Catholicism is celebrated with white vestments and cloths to symbolize the joyful event of the soul leaving the body to be reunited with Christ. 

Awakening, Collective Consciousness, Spirituality, Vibrational Living

Love Trumps Fear

Many say we are in a spiritual war of sorts right now between the light and the dark on earth.  Others refer to this as the biblical war between good and evil.  For others still, it is the fight between the alliance and the cabal. However, you look at it, there is something taking place in our world as the collective work to birth new earth, the golden age of Aquarius.  This new age of peace and enlightenment has been foretold in the stars.  As I study this event, I continue to find new information or at least new to me.  I am going to focus on structures of the dark and light in this post along with what sustains them.

As discussed before, everything in our world operates from vibration and frequency.  This is by divine design by our Creator and is organic to the human being and our planet.  The etheric body permeates our body and extends several inches outside of our body.  Our chakras system is part of the etheric body.  Our etheric body emits our vibrational frequency.  This is why often being in close proximity to someone you can pick up on their vibrational mood for those who are sensitive.  Lower emotions such as fear, shame, guilt, and anger equate to a lower frequency/vibration in the human energy body or etheric body.  Higher emotions of love, joy, and peace vibrate at much higher frequencies.  Paying attention to our energy frequency is critically important at all times for it affects what manifests in our lives but is also especially important now in these current times.

Loosh is a new term I recently heard.  I looked it up.  Interestingly, the only two places I found the term was in the Urban dictionary and a spiritual dictionary.  Loosh is defined as the emotional energy radiated by animals and humans when feeling fearful, threatened, or harmed.  In other words, when you operate at low frequencies, you give off loosh.  Apparently, loosh is the feeding source for the dark forces.  In other words, creating fear for humans is providing food for our parasitic hosts otherwise known as the dark forces.  This makes sense as fear mongering seems to be the order of the day in our media, and many are living in a state of fear given what they project.  (Ivo of Vega: Loosh Channeling)

Many sources claim the organic human matrix was hijacked by the dark forces eons ago, something like 26,000 years ago or since the fall of Atlantis.  These dark forces have kept organic humans trapped in this density of 3D with fear, war, death, repeating the cycle over and over because they need our loosh to survive.  What keeps coming to my mind is the Klingons from Star Trek.  Who knew we were living a Star Trek movie?!?  The dark forces are the service-to-self faction in our society.  The elites, politicians, globalists, celebrities, etc. who are the top one percent of society telling those below them how they should live and work while they do as they please.  While I knew we were just pawns in their game, I did not know we were their source of energy/food.  It seems clearer now and the pieces are starting to fall together.

At this time, we as a collective are awakening to this hijacking of our true organic divine and powerful nature.  We are sovereign beings as created in and of God’s essence.  We have lived in this dense reality with the veil down keeping us from knowing all that we are by nature.  This veil of density was cast over earth by the dark forces – remember the fall of Lucifer (evil – veil). The time has come for the dawn of peace on earth.  Many on earth are waking up to their divine connection to Source, God of all.  We are learning about the divine organic design of the human body with it soul source connection.  We are learning we are co-creators with God, and this was the organic design all along.  We can create or manifest our reality and experiences here on earth from within ourselves.  The ancient teachings exist to lead us to our awakening to the truth of who and what we really are as the human children of God on earth.  (I am planning on delving into these ancient teachings soon.) These truths have been purposefully hidden from us to keep us trapped in 3D, to keep us from ascending in consciousness to the next level as we were organically designed to do as we experienced life on earth.

Think about how the emotions vibrate through your being.  When I feel love, I feel strong, big, confident.  When I feel fear, I feel small, unsure, unconfident.  Tune into your feelings.  Love brings me peace and ease.  Fear brings the opposite, insecurity, and unease.  To move up in consciousness, we must stay in the higher vibrations of love, joy, and peace with ourselves and with others.  There are psychic attacks by dark energies to bring us down on purpose to keep us trapped and to provide the lower energies they need to exist.  When you are feeling lower emotions, call in your angels to assist.  My favorite is to call on Archangel Michael to protect me with his blue flame sword to remove any psychic cords or entities around me.

As this battle wages between the dark and the light, remember to stay in higher vibrations.  Spend time doing something that you enjoy.  Spend time being creative in some fashion.  Spend time laughing and enjoying life.  Spend time imagining what you want to see manifest in the world. Ask Spirit and the angels to protect and guide you in your day as a source of light for our world.  Feed the light with your faith, love, peace, and joy in each day giving gratitude for God’s creation here on earth.

As we collectively stay focused in love and light, we will evolve in consciousness to the next level.  Like any parasitic host, the dark side is not going to freely give up its food source.  Again, we must physically, emotionally, and mentally do the work to free ourselves from this dense duality on earth.  We can do it for we are children of God made of His essence.  When we accept this and live this we stand in our true power as divine sovereign beings of the light.  And then love triumphs over the dark!  Keep the faith, hold the line, soldier on to a bright new future!

Awakening, Collective Consciousness, Spirituality

Take a Small Step Before the Quantum Leap

This week is to be a big week for all of us around the globe. The energy is high. Actually, there are two streams of energy in our world right now depending on which one you resonate with: grateful anticipation or fearful anxiousness. I am on the grateful anticipation bandwidth for the time has come for humanity to birth new earth as we join together in unity consciousness. You either know what I am talking about or you do not for either way the choice will be yours to make as the time draws near for soon all shall be revealed as we move into Christ consciousness.

While 2020 was a year for many to open their eyes and awake, if not already, it was also to prepare us for 2021. For the year 2021 will be yet a more powerful year of revelation, freedom, and truth. We have been called to hold the field of love for ourselves and our fellow man as we traverse through the darkness into the light. The fight of good versus evil or light versus dark has already been waged in the higher realms and is over. The light of good has won! Remember this, as each will take the journey to remembering who we really are and what our true mission is here on earth.

This meditation with Archangel Michael from Melanie Beckler is so calming, reassuring, and empowering at this time. Click Here. I implore you to take 15 minutes of solitude to listen and let the waves of love and light wash over you! Focus on the feeling of your heart center in the middle of your chest.

For me right now, my heart center is bursting with light and energy. I feel like Iron Man from the Marvel movies with my center energy core lit and activated. My third eye and crown chakras tingle as they are being awakened in my divine oneness with Source, my divine light being. I am ready as I acknowledge my “I AM” presence with God, Source of All.

To ascend we must acknowledge the light and dark within ourselves as well as within humanity. We incorporate both into the one as we are all one. Consequently, we take the journey into the truth of darkness to understand how to stay in the light. Remember, light illuminates the dark and love overpowers the fear. So, fear not …

For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, do not fear, I will help you. ~ Isaiah 41:13

As much as possible this week and next, take time to go within yourself to find your truth. The meditation in this post is an excellent tool to use if you are new to these concepts. Spend time reading spiritual material or check out my other blog posts on this site for reference. If your confused or have questions, ask your Spirit for guidance, ask another person you trust who resonates with your truth, or post a question below. Pray. Light a candle. Give thanks. May God, Christ, Mother Mary and the angelic realm bless us, lead us, guide us, and keep us into the new dawn, the golden age of peace on earth. So be it. Amen.

Awakening, Collective Consciousness, Spirituality, Vibrational Living

Happy December 2020

I wanted to share this excellent message for our times. Please give yourself the gift of listening to this message to uplift and transform yourself as well as our world. Namaste 🙏🏻

From Melanie Beckler, a message from Archangel Gabriel: https://youtu.be/VMn20ROsbX8

Collective Consciousness, Vibrational Living

Foremost is Gratitude

Do not grow weary,

Do not be afraid,

For I AM with you,

Keep the faith, Hold the light,

All shall be revealed in divine time,

Rejoice and be glad,

In thanksgiving through gracious gratitude,

For our highest good and our highest truth,

Hold the light for all,

For thy will be done,

Amen.

Awakening, Collective Consciousness, Conscious Living, Spirituality

The Light at the End of the Tunnel

Through a recent conversation with a friend, I realized for many, this time could be difficult not just with the stress of the virus or the world but also looking within ourselves.  Working on myself is a path I deliberately committed to back in 2016. I was driven to find my purpose in life, to explore my spiritual callings, and to actualize my potential.  I have been on this path for four years learning and exploring my inner self, my outer self, my higher self.  For many, this is not a personal passion or even a comfortable subject to discuss.  Some have been there before but are now distant.  Some are working on it.  Others do not even want to discuss it.

I believe, as many others do, this time is a divine purposeful gift to all of humanity.  The year 2020 is literally written in the stars or astrology that is 😊.  This is the year for humanity to begin to awaken if they have not. Thus, the forced journey inward during this chaotic year with most of it being spent at home … for everyone.  For many this means shadow work and possibly facing their dark night of the soul on top of whatever else each is facing in their life at this time.

I feel I went through my dark night of the soul between 2009 to 2014.  During that time, several things came crashing down on me.  Pretty much every area of my life bottomed out:  home life, married life, work life, family life, financial life.  Most of those days it was a struggle to get out of bed, take care of the kids, and try to keep it together.  At the time I worked as a church administrator, so I renewed my faith in church and clung to the scriptures getting me through the difficult times.  I was not comfortable sharing my struggles with family or friends, so it was also a very lonely time for me with me wondering many times should I go on.  My two boys were the reason I kept getting up in the morning. 

I made it through those dark times with help.  I renewed my prayer life and started actively reading the daily scriptures.  I broke down in my doctor’s office leading her to give me the name of a good therapist and putting me on Prozac to help me with the stress of processing my life.  I took the Prozac and called the therapist.  With time, prayer, and my therapist, I was able to begin putting my life back together.  By 2015, I was able to stop the Prozac along with my therapist.  The smartest thing I did was get myself some help.  We all need help sometimes.  We are human.  It is okay to ask for help in your life.

Through my dark night of the soul I felt like I was being finely tempered like a metal blade in the fire.  I learned firsthand about temperance, judgement, patience, and prudence in my life.  I am very conscious of my choices and decisions in my life now.  I am very cautious about the things I might wish for because I learned firsthand the grass is not always greener and you might just get what you wished for along with all of its trappings.  I have a broader perspective on life now.  I have learned not to let what is happening in the “now” define me.  Five years of despair in a life of eighty plus years is not much at all when you think about it.  I am who I am today because of all I went through and for that I am eternally grateful.

When I think about this time in my life, I think of the song Gracefully Broken by Matt Redman.  It is beautiful and a great reminder that we are all human and all broken. 

Fast forward to 2020, four years of intentionally living as co-creator of my life I am happier than ever.  My life has truly transformed because I learned to understand the me – we relationship with spirit or divine source.  I learned to love myself.  I learned to talk to my inner child.  I am intentionally co-creating with my higher self.  However, these transformations did not just come to me.  I had to do the work, the education, and the practice.  As I have said before, if only our education system was designed to truly teach us about our humanness, the physical world, and the non-physical world, we would be so much farther ahead in our lives.  Maybe one day I can make a difference in this area.  I would love to create a “life” class for all four years of high school. 

While we are here in physical form in a physical reality, we are still directly connected to the non-physical realm.  Our task is to remember this and to learn to partner with the non-physical to live a fully actualized human experience.  We each have a soul, an inner knowing, a higher self that is a part of our being.  We each have an angel team and spirit guides assigned to assist us through this human life.  These are all available for us – if we but merely only ask for their assistance.  Remember, you are love, you are light, you are spirit incarnate!

As we move into the winter here in the states, I am noticing the seasons much more since moving to the country.  Each season has its purpose.  Fall is winding down here. The fields are brown, raked clean from the harvest.  The days are getting shorter with more darkness than light now.  Winter is coming.  Winter is the time for rest, renewal, rejuvenation, and hibernation.  Mother nature is purposeful in it being cold and dark for us to retreat inside. As winter, comes to a close, the days will get longer with more light as we come out to begin anew.  We plant in the spring our new life.  The tractors roll in the fields planting the corn.  Next comes Summer when the corn grows fast and tall, strong, and plentiful.  We enjoy the long days of light playing in the sunshine.  Soon enough Fall will come back around for us to harvest the seeds we planted in the spring, to take stock of our bounty, and to prepare for our winter’s retreat.

This yearly cycle of the seasons closely resembles our cycles through life.  During the dark times, remember to look for the blessing in any burden.  Give thanks throughout all of life, not for just the joyous occasions.  Give thanks for the often overlooked but gifts none the less such as clean water, hot water, blooming flowers, buzzing bees, and a child’s laughter.  When I wake up now, I give thanks for the beautiful new day, my bed, my blankets, and I keep looking around and giving thanks for all I see.  It really will set the tone for the day – a miraculous day!

So, if you have not already, I encourage you to do the work to go within, to reconnect with your spirit.  Now is the time.  Now is the gift.  As you stay at home and hibernate through the winter, take the time to renew your spirit.  No one can do it for you.  Each of us must walk our own path to find our own truth in our own time.  You will find greater happiness along the way.  When we live with purpose, we become fulfilled, in essence, our cup over floweth to shine our light for others.  My journey is chronicled in this blog to share with others in the hopes we all return to the awareness of all that we are – one with each other, one in divine source, God.

Another wonderful song for us to end on: You Are Love by Laura Story.